I got what I wanted.
Yay!
Thank you Ayah. :)

Okay.
I am gonna clarify things.
Right here, right now.
My status on YM about getting married was a joke between me and Yuya and somehow, by accident, I went from invisible to available and didn't notice it.
Omar is my landlord's son who likes to scream and shout at odd hours like 2 in the morning.
So yes.
Saya belum mahu berkahwin.
Mungkin tidak akan berkahwin dalam masa terdekat ni.
InsyaALLAH beberapa tahun akan dtang nanti.
Tidak mempunyai calon.
Sedang jatuh cinta.
Tapi bukan dengan orang.
Dengan benda-benda yang tidak hidup.
Seperti kasut, beg dan lipbalm.
So please ignore benda-benda tu semua.
Itu hanya gurauan semata-mata dan tiada kene mengena antara yang hidup atau yang telah tiada.
So please don't come up to me and say Congratulations.
Sekian, harap maklum.

Hari ni sngat lah panas.
Seriously.
Like when I woke up, I immediately took a shower and didn't want to get out.
Kalau boleh nak berendam, but then baru teringat.
I have Histology exam tomorrow.

So then I studied and sometime after Asar, I got tired and sleepy.
Honestly, the heat somehow has a way of making people sleepy.
So I slept and basically woke up after 10 minutes.
The frustrating part?
It happened for two hours.
And at six, I started feeling cranky because I needed the sleep.
I wanted to sleep. Badly.
But had to wake up because I was sweating like mad.
It was as if I just ran across a desert at noon.
Great.

And, the best part was, my lipbalm melted.
Yes, my lipbalm, yang baru beli hari tu and baru pakai sekali, melted.
It was in a tub, and no, I didn't put it beside the laptop mcm hari tu.
Oh, baru teringat kene balik rumah lama and amik lipbalm masukkan dlam fridge hari tu.
Anyways, yes. It melted.
To the point that it was almost batter-like and bila nak pakai, dia menitik2.
I refrigerated it and now it's normal-looking again and tastes good.
Yay me! Hahah.

I ordered CookDoor for dinner and told the guy to bring change for 100.
The guy even had it printed on the receipt and the delivery guy had the guts to tell me nobody told him and even suggested that I wait while he goes to a shop because he had no change.
Dapat pulak nak trust you with 100 genih and not run away with my money.
After arguing and him muttering swear words under his breath while thinking that I-do-not-understand-him-but-I-do-and-was-actually-refraining-myself-from-kicking-or-at-least-swearing-back-at-him, Yuya gave me 40 and he returned my change. Tak cukup 50 sen.
While I was counting, he ran down the stairs.
Yes, ran.
Ok, fine, he did not run.
He fled down the stairs and into the lift.
Pfft.
Amik lah 50 sen tu, pergi beli Chixo. * a Cadbury version of Choki Choki*

Oh, and hopefully I can withdraw money tomorrow.
Am gonna buy that thing I want and no Low, am not gonna buy a canggih-canggih one so that sampai naik juling mata kau tengok.
Bahaha.
Oh, and am in the mood for a new lipbalm.
Hopefully everything's well tomorrow with exam and all.
InsyaALLAH.

Ya Tuhanku, lapangkanlah untukku dadaku, Dan mudahkanlah untukku urusanku.

Two of our housemates have gone back to Malaysia for the summer break.
So that leaves only the two of us here in this house.
Have a safe journey you guys.
Dan juga kepada yang lain-lain yang dah nak balik.


Lots of love from Mansoura.
;)

Happy Father's Day, Ayah.

You have been, you are and you will always be the one I look up to.

Thank you for everything.

I love you so very much.

Angkat barang, 2nd trip.
Thank you Arif and Husni.
Jasa kalian di kenang.
:)

Terima kasih.
Seikhlas hati, terima kasih banyak-banyak.
Wak, Boboy, Bob, Aceng, Fikri, Muawiyah, Luth, Syamil, Rahman, Farid and Titi.
Turun 5 tingkat dengan berbeg-beg dan berkotak-kotak.
Satu beg bukan setakat 5kg.
Lebih rasenye.
Adalah dalam 40 kg kot beg yang kecik tu.
Yang besar, you do the math. ;)
Tapi betul lah, ingatkan ada byak lagi masa dah smpai bawah tu.
Terima kasih banyak-banyak.
Tuhan saja dapat membalasnya.


Oh, and Happy Birthday Biyanan.
Kesian birthday boy kene angkat barang.
Nanti claim Snickers Cruncher ye.
Hadiah hari jadi.
:)

We were supposed to move in to the new house last Monday but it's already Wednesday today and I have exam on Friday.
And another one on the 25th.
Pika and Naz is going back on the 26th.
Dear Baba, cepat lah sikit.
Time is running out.

Oh, and something's wrong with my phone.
It has been on roaming mode for the last 3 days.
I can't make any phone calls or send any text messages.
The worst part is, I can't even receive phone calls and text messages.
Hmm, a new phone, perhaps?

I am confused, angry, frustated and dissapointed.
Yes, I am.
Very, in fact.

Where are you when I need you?
Cepat lah. :(

It has been a while since we last ate at GMN and everyone was not in the mood to cook so we decided to have lunch at GMN.
I am honestly worried sick for Physiology.
Very very very worried.
So we were eating when Shabs came in with Asadah and Soraya and it wasn't until they sat with us that I noticed Asadah's jeans.
Its exactly the same pair of jeans I have and left at home.
And due to the awesome combination of imbalanced hormones, summer heat, starvation, exam stress and the frustation of trying to memorize immunity, I found myself missing home.
It was as if I was in my room, looking out the window, and everything was just surreal.
The bed, the closet, the chest by the window, the bathroom, the mirrors, the carpet, everything.
And it felt like I could just walk out the room and walk around the familiar house and expect familiar faces and voices around me.
And then reality hit.
At least lagi 2 bulan baru boleh balik okay? Sila berpijak di bumi nyata sekarang juga sebelum anda terbang jauh, mengelamun dan membiarkan saja buku Physio itu di situ.
It's silly how a pair of jeans can have that much effect.
Maybe it's this place.
Then again, maybe it's just me.

I was having lunch with Izzah yesterday when she said something to me.
Something never in a million years would I ever thought of.
Then it hit me that it might be true.
And it boggled my mind all day yesterday.

''Look, I like you for who you are, just the way you are and I don't need you to change. In fact, I don't want you to change. I don't need you to be *. Honestly, I don't want you to. Sila tafsir betul2 semua yang telah berlaku, and you'll get it. There's more to it than what you think.''

Blurgh. If only I could go up to him and say it in his face.

And seriously, I cant stand looking at books anymore. Especially Physiology. Wanna know why?

Because I feel like throwing up. Honestly, I do. Dah pening tgok buku2 ini. Dah penat. Dah mual.
Tinggal rasa nak muntah dan pengsan bersama2 timbunan buku ni.

"Dear God, help me. Give me strength. I need to do this. I have to make this work somehow."

Or, bak kata Dora, I'll die trying.

We were studying, when Naz started googling.
Of all the things google-able, guess what she googled.
Mona Fandey.
Yes, THE Mona Fandey.
Apparently, she's on Wikipedia.
That's how popular she is.
Apparently, she was a pop singer at one point, managed to record an album, and has this one hit single, 'Ratapan Anak' and it's on Youtube.
Seriously, the video was creepy.
Naz posted a link and wrote

''Adakah tahap keberanian anda tinggi? Sila buka.''

And she sent a picture of her when she was on trial to Izzah and Yuya's phone, insisting that she put that as their wallpaper.
And guess who shouted at 12.30 in the morning?
All of us.
Pfft.
So much for late night entertainment.

Oh and thank you Nazeera Nasir for the new layout.
Seriously, thank you.
:)

To say that I am not dissapointed would be an utter lie.
But it would be very selfish of me to not let you guys go.
I hope you guys had fun.
I love you all very much.
Still.
Maybe it's just all the exam stress.
And the fact that I want to go home so very badly.

I am not a shopaholic.
Neither do I come from a family where money is not an object.
It's just that when I do buy something, it makes me feel better.
A whole lot better.
Be it a pair of shoes, bags, clothes or just an ice-cream,
shopping is like a therapy.
Seriously, it is.


I do not cry without a reason.
I cry when I am feeling sad, down, discouraged, mad or simply scared.
When it feels unbearable.
I do not cry because I want the attention.
I cry because when I do, it washes a bit of the pain.


Do not tell me that I do not want it bad enough.
Or that I am not working as hard as you are.
Or that I do not deserve it.
Because you do not know anything.
At least not yet. :)


Anyways, Physio exam is in 7 days, exactly a week. And I haven't been studying as hard as I should. They are all in Japan for the holidays. And I did not know until last night, the day before they're coming back home. Yeah, I love you guys too. Pfft.

Ohh, the other day one of my housemate was studying with bones and she took permanent markers and started drawing muscle insertion and all when another hosemate of mine asked,

''eh, takpe ke kau conteng tulang tu dengan marker?''

and guess what she answered?

''hmm.entah lah, tapi aku rasa lah kan, aku rasa lah, tulang ni tak payah amik air smyang.''

so, yeah.

and the other day, W wanted to take photos with X, to compare skin colours.

W : jom lah, satu gambar je.
X : no.
W : boleh lah. it's for my own collection.
X : no.
W : i'm recording this, you know.
X : s**t, nmpak! saje je kan?

Then, all of a sudden,

Y : Kalau aku masuk, mesti aku kat tengah2 kan?

One word Y, pffffffft.
Anyways, we retold the story to Z and A.

Z : tak baik lah, habis tu kalau aku, dekat mane?
Y : kau tgh gayut phone mase tu.
W,X,A : huh?
Z : bukan, kalau aku masuk, aku dekat mane?
Y : kau tgh gayut phone lah mase tu.
W,X,A : Oi, kau ni kenape?
Y : eh.eh.oohhhhhh.baru aku faham.haha.

The conclusion here is, we, by the day, scratch that. By the second, are getting more and more insane. But most definitely we are loving every second of it.

Oh, the people I love.

One who hates aborigin people, bad English, zits, wants to get hot ASAP, and wants nothing more than to be home, an SLR camera and likes someone never-in-a-million-years-would-she-fall-for-but-did-eventually. Sometimes is extra sweet saying stuff like ''aku sayang kau'' and when she's not in the mood and you try saying that, she'll be '' What did you do? What did you break?'' and is a philosopher-in-the-making.

Another one who seems to be the only one who likes Miley Cyrus and the another-mountain-song in the house, trying to learn the guitar, addicted to Best juices, always in front of the laptop and is now being called a rempit by Naz.

The big sister who really knows how to cheer people up, had a pedal-feast the other day, always up for delivery or just jalan-jalan when we're bored, always there to listen, knows how to have fun and still work hard for what she wants and a firm believer of herself and always have a way of making us happy and trust me, seeing her laugh is contagious. I rolled on the floor at 5 in the morning, crying as I laughed too hard. Oh, and don't ask what were we laughing about.

And the bubbly one who always does random things and say random stuffs. Always up for shopping, movies and chocolates. Very funny and sweet and always perasan as the ''budak kampung''. Pfft. Cyberjaya bukan kampung okay? And is being bahan-ed as the Mawi fan, mainly because she's from Johore and adalah sbb satu benda ni. She's part Bugis and if it isn't for her, I wouldnt know what Burasak, mandre or lalek menggali-gali means. Oh, and she basically reads my minds at times and sometimes, writes it on my wall on Facebook. :)