I felt like a big part of me left when I found out.

There were just so many things I wanted to tell you but I didn't.

So many things we said we'd do but now won't happen.

So many things you did for me that I would never forget.

You would always be there. Just a phone call, or a text away.

You have our picture posted on your closet door and you promised me you would come visit me here.

I'm sorry for not spending enough time with you.

I'm sorry I did not call or text you more often.

I'm sorry you got worried about me.

And I'm sorry I couldn't see you and kiss you for the last time.

But I got the last text you sent me. And it truly meant a lot to me.

And I love you too, Atok. Very much. And I will miss you even more than you think I'll do.

Rest in peace, Atok.

Oh Tuhanku, tempatkan lah dia dalam kalangan orang-orang yang beriman dan cucuri rahmat dan keampunan keatasnya.