I've never been so lost in my life before.

In all honesty, I don't even know how hope feels like anymore. 

A part of me wants to just pack my stuffs, catch the next flight back home and start all over again.

But another part wants to stay and give it my last shot.

Dear God. I am helpless without you. Please, I'm begging you. Grant me strength, show me the way, for now, I need you the most.